Doubt

1. Which people or events have shaped your world view?
My grandparents would have to be my answer for this question. I grew up in a joint custody between my grandparents and great grandparents, but still remained pretty close to my dad, so I got a little bit of something from each generation. growing up like this has helped me relate to people in ways most people can't, it was hard in elementary school when everyone lived with their parents and I always had to explain why I didn't live with mine. But now that I'm older I realize how many people love me and only want the best for me and have given me that love to share with evevryone else. I have learned to NEVER judge anyone from where they come from or their history but what they are doing with their life now.
2. What color are your mothers eyes?
Brown. They are a really deep dark brown. I know this for sure because I got a mix of her and my dad's eyes completely and his are green and mine are very light brown with a hint of green in them.
3. Whom do you trust?
I think trust really depends on the subject at hand. Everyone lies, so I think the better way to describe trust is Who can you rely on the most, and that would be my family (most of them) and my boyfriend of three years Christopher Lewis.
4. What color is the ocean?
My insticnt answer would be blue, but not all parts of the ocean is blue, some is black, some is clear, some is greenish. Everyone always answers blue because thats what they are taught growing up, is it actually the truth? I don't really know.
5. Is there life after death?
This answer clearly depends on one how you take the question and two what you believe. I was raised Catholic, but as I've gotten older I have become doubtful of what really happens after you die, is there really a heaven or hell, no one who is alive can really answer that question. Now if the question was taken as to mean ghosts or some sort of paranormal energy I would believe that. Personal experiences have led me to believe that.
6. Is it always wrong to steal?
Yes, unless it's in some kind of good interest. If you are doing it for your own benefit then yes it is wrong to steal however if you are stealing something to save someones life then no I dont think so. There is always a space in between right and wrong when it just becomes a "it depends" kinda situation.
7. Is there life on other planets?
I have no idea. I have never experienced anything to let me believe there are, but I don't completely get rid of the idea because no one really knows the answer to that question.

Things Carried

1.keys
2.phone
3.pictures of my brothers
4.camera
5.a ring my uncle gave me

I think that my keys. phone, and camera are pretty normal to always have with me, but the pictures and the ring aren't the norm for most people.
People looking in would assume that I drive, text alot, take pictures, but I'm not sure what they would begin to think about the pictures and the ring.
My uncle is someone who means so much to me, he is and always has been my hero. He is only ten years older than me so he is really like an older brother to me and he gave me this ring when I was like ten. There is nothing special about it, it turns my finger green when I wear it, but it is my most favorite peice of jewelry that I own; therefore, I carry it with me always to show how much he means to me.
My little brothers are my heart, and I rarely see them. And I mean rarely the last time I saw them was in May and it had been two years before that. My mom moved to Louisiana and neither one of us wants to drive all the way just to see each other, we are still upset at each other which is something I just need to work on letting go of. I carry their pictures with me no matter where I am, they sit in my car and when I get out they go into my pocket. I miss them terribly.

the next go round

School is starting back up, and its all starting to get real again.
Taking 16 hours.
I am really going to either hate myself now and thank myself later, or just completely hate myself in general.
its alot of work.