Difficulties in a Child called it

The books themselves are heart tearing books.  Not only was I crying in these books for this poor child, I was angry at the Mother through the entire series.  I really wanted to hit her through the books.  In my last paragraphs I try to tie back the point of forgiving in order to let go. I personally struggle with that statement.  I want so much to let go of somethings from my past, but in order to do that I actually have to bring myself to forgive my parents which in all honesty may never happen, I may tell them I forgive them but on the inside i dont think I can ever fully let myself go and it scares me. That was the toughest thing about writing this story...it made me realize how scared I was.